Thursday, April 17, 2003



WE ARE DONE....my LAST day of classes is over!!!!!!!
haaaa hee ehaeeahha aww hee hawww hee haaaa h bA hA HA HA HA HA
heha eeee heeahawww haww heee heeahhtee ehee eteee haaa h ahee haumm
heeee tee haawww bA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
*whispers* I'm done.....
HHAEE HAA EHHEWWW HWE HHAAAA HA HA HA HA HA


Tuesday, April 15, 2003



i went to sleep last night and in my mind something happened that hasn't happened in a long time...
you see...i think to much....this has always been a blessing but more often than not it has been a curse.
Most of my life i have had intense difficulty sleeping be/c as soon as my head hits the pillow my head starts racing like it hasn't thought all day long and i can never sleep b/c my mind won't shut up. Well occasionally throughout my life something has happened in my thoughts that i haven't been able to control. this is what happened again last night. so as i'm lying there my mind racing, all of a sudden it sounds like a war in my head.
fighter jets flying over, helicopters hovering, tanks slowly rolling by. but these sounds don't just pass on by; no they are constant and deafening to the point where i can't even hear my own thoughts that are trying so hard to be heard; striving for attention like a toddler who wants to be the centre of the world.
this goes on for quite a few minuets and then all of a sudden i fall asleep to the sounds of fighter jets, helicopters and tanks constantly rolling around in my heads.
i'm sure i feel asleep smiling.
than i had a weird dream. the dream toally all day has left a "feeling" ing in y spirit even now....i'll see flashbacks of it all day and it's really odd......anyway....
yeah....i'm just apparently really daft......

Sunday, April 13, 2003



it's raining !!!!!! it's raining!!!!!!!

i am so happy! the last time i went to sleep when it started to rain i woke up the next morning and there were 8 foot high snow banks all over the place and huge machinery was gettting stuck in the snow because it was so deep.......

it's actually raining......still!!

it is such a wonderful, beautiful thing for me to fall asleep with the sound of rain gently tickleing my window....ahhh it was so wonderful........now it's still raining!!!!
helmraiser is a very happy camper.......teehee......well i'm off to sing......ciao