i guess to be blunt i feel that my blog of this moment needs to be about my pursuit of God in my life.
to be honest i am not even sure where to start or what to say.
i feel annoyingly frustrated because i can't seem to chase Jesus has hard as my heart wants too.
i see so many things in my life that need to change, that i want to see change, that i desperately hope will someday change and as i try and do my best to bring that change as close as i can to happening i feel as though i'm trying to sprint under water. That's such a frustrating feeling.
i ran accross this little "thingy", here check it out....
Give yourself wholly to God,
then bolt the back door,
leave yourself no way out,
blow up your bridges and burn your boats
and above all,
accept no calls from the old rituals...
i find it funny that because of our sinful natures and our INTENSE desire to be anything BUT dependant on God,
we quite litterally have to do the above in the quote. We need to completely cut off all "back-up-plans"...
forget that you have a back door in case of emergencies and DAILY attempt to make Jesus your first and ONLY way escape.
This is the struggle that plays with my mind as i sit on the bus every morning at 7 am; as i head to a job that is cheating me money, as i work with people who constantly do as little work as possible and as slow as possible; as i sit and eat food that i really didn't want to spend money on; as i think about how intensely i long to travel, how i feel it is litterally eating away at my heart every time i see a picture in a magazine of another country and it's peoples, or backpackers and their gear.....
The question will always be,
how do i in this time and place practically give myself wholly to God?
how do i burn my bridges and lock my back door escape option?
how do i become the child of God that He has created me to be?
how do i crawl onto his lap and rest in His assurance that He has got me now and in my future?
how do you guys rest in Jesus? what works for you and your life? How do you soak in His love for you?
to be honest i am not even sure where to start or what to say.
i feel annoyingly frustrated because i can't seem to chase Jesus has hard as my heart wants too.
i see so many things in my life that need to change, that i want to see change, that i desperately hope will someday change and as i try and do my best to bring that change as close as i can to happening i feel as though i'm trying to sprint under water. That's such a frustrating feeling.
i ran accross this little "thingy", here check it out....
Give yourself wholly to God,
then bolt the back door,
leave yourself no way out,
blow up your bridges and burn your boats
and above all,
accept no calls from the old rituals...
i find it funny that because of our sinful natures and our INTENSE desire to be anything BUT dependant on God,
we quite litterally have to do the above in the quote. We need to completely cut off all "back-up-plans"...
forget that you have a back door in case of emergencies and DAILY attempt to make Jesus your first and ONLY way escape.
This is the struggle that plays with my mind as i sit on the bus every morning at 7 am; as i head to a job that is cheating me money, as i work with people who constantly do as little work as possible and as slow as possible; as i sit and eat food that i really didn't want to spend money on; as i think about how intensely i long to travel, how i feel it is litterally eating away at my heart every time i see a picture in a magazine of another country and it's peoples, or backpackers and their gear.....
The question will always be,
how do i in this time and place practically give myself wholly to God?
how do i burn my bridges and lock my back door escape option?
how do i become the child of God that He has created me to be?
how do i crawl onto his lap and rest in His assurance that He has got me now and in my future?
how do you guys rest in Jesus? what works for you and your life? How do you soak in His love for you?