Saturday, May 03, 2003

i greatly dislike this not having a job thing.
i may need to pull some desperate measures.
this may mean working at Humpty's.....or even........heaven forbid....
.......da ....DaA....dAHHHH........
*whispers* domo.......never again.

Wednesday, April 30, 2003

well..i must say that it is good to be back in a city. it reminds me of how much i love being surrounded by lots of people that i don't know. i get excited because i'm always like "all these people that i don't know that i need to get to know!"
i was out giving my resumes to a whole mass load of places and i stopped by the forks where i used to work.(i was applying to a place that was on the upstairs in the building)
i ran into about 5 regulars that i used to serve coffee too everyday and they all were exstatic to see me. we spoke for about half an hour. that is always an exciting thing. i had a really good relationship with the regulars and they were, most days, the thing that kept me at my job. so it was such a blessing to run into them and have them remember me and sit and talk with me. i love brightening people's days, i love making strangers smile, i love having conversations with the transit drivers it really seems to brighten their day when they can actually have stimulating conversations.
i want to work at one of my old coffee shops just so that I spend time with the regulars again. somedays i can't believe how much i enjoy working at a coffee shop, and how much i miss it.
i wonder if i should revive my dream of owning a coffee shop....not just a coffee shop though, a, to use a cliche term, "outreach" type place. a safe place, a place where people feel comfortable and at home. a place with filled with local artists, painting right there, peices all over the walls, a studio in the back where observers can watch artists create. whatever. i'm just talking out of my ass.
i have too many dreams, everyone always tells me that "you can't do everything rachel"...
i wonder if i'll ever be able to pursue all that i want too......whatever.....i'm going now.

I had to do another one:

What DragonBall Girl Are You?

Monday, April 28, 2003

i am here.
here is winnpeg.
this should be happy.
this should be comfortable.
this is odd.
i feel awkward, out of place.
i don't really know why.
i feel homeless,
this place, this city was/is my home.
but why do when i finally get to return, feel so not at home?
i'm sure it's because i have changed so much since i left,
that will always change things.
i dunno.....whatever...
i haven't really been able to think this all through so this doesn't even really make any sense.

Cutest little dragon master.

Find out what anime girl you are.

Which Genocidal Maniac Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey
A solemn "shalom" to you.
You're the current Prime Minister of Israel, responsible for the killings of numerous Palestinians at the hands of the Israeli army and police forces, not to mention the illegal destruction of Yassir Arafat's HQ. But check this! You were also the Minister of Defence in 1982, when Israeli forces brutally massacred Palestinians in two refugee camps on the outskirts of Beirut non-stop for over thirty hours.

Regarding your current actions against the Palestinian people, you recently said: "In wartime, you don't have to expose everything to the world, to stand in public and reveal everything, in the name of that hypocritical and lie-filled concept known as honesty." In other words, you're not going to say what you're doing, and you might even lie about it.

Spoken like a true genocidal maniac.

Ooooo Shiney!

What Random Object From Ydoc Nameloc's Room Are You?

You are that glittering thing that is currently attracting the majority of people...or if you aren't then try selling yourself in bulk. You are a good listener, and store more information than your predecessor. That new guy on the block is starting to make you nervous though...damn dvd-r's