sugar does weird things to me once it enters my blood stream.
my blogging schedual was planned to be much different than i fear it will end up in.
i'll give you my quick news:

QuIcK NeWs:
- i started my new job today
- it went well
- i worked with three extremly hillarious women
~ woman number one was a crazy lady who spoke incredably fast and constantly....she spoke to herself and to anyone there listening. her voice is deep and with a raspy edge like it has been coated with wiskey and cigar smoke for years.
~ woman number two was from kosovo and was quiet but deeply sarcastic. B/c i am of the sarcastic variety as well we picked this quality up in each other extremly fast and spent the day giving each other those kind of glances that speak so much more than words and then both breaking out in held back laughter....because she isn't very good with english yet i thought i would try and tied her over with the sporatic sentances in albanian i learned. (these sentances consist of "stupid cat" and "go kick the cat" as well as "would you like an artichoke with your tea") Her laughter upon hearing me spit these out of my mouth was enough to make my whole week.....
~ woman number three was another quiet woman from slovakia or something. She has a sarcastic edge as well but hesitates to use it, at all times trying to appear collected, respectful, and hardworking.... But watching woman number two and I broke her out of her shell fast....she would be quiet for so long and then input just one sentance, quietly, discreetly...in the middle of conversation and the three of us would kill oursleves laughing....it was great... She isn't afraid to speak up or confront when need be and she works so hard....she is fun to work with.....
........*whispers* psssttt....quick notes continued......
- i am glad that i have to get up at 5:45 am 4 days a week
- i need to kick myself in the ass and start writing some music again
- i need to make time to paint
- i have three weddings that i somehow need to find the funds to get too....two of those weddings are happening on the same day in two different provinces....eeeeeek
- i hate the fact that i left all my notes from college in saskatchwan
- i am so tired right now that sounds are echoing and my forehead is getting cramped from furrowing my brow in attempts to make letters independant of each other, not bleed together....
- i am currently falling over in my chair........Z Z Z ZZ zz Z z zzzzzzzzzz

things on tv don't usually affect me anymore...i mean i can watch the most horrible violence and not really be fazed by it. I am not proud of this fact but none the less it's how i am...
my surprise today came when i was watching tv, flipping channels waiting for the third period of game 5 to start on the hockey game i got stuck on a show called crime stories revealed or something like that anyway. It's real life CSI (crime scene investigators) stories...
I was watching casually as this story of this CSI crew who arrived at this guys house...he had commited suicide. as soon as i saw him...i just started bawling. That never happens to me....usually things on tv are so removed from me....because they are on tv they just don't seem real...especially when they are in a "tv show" format.
it didn't stop there....as the stories moved on and different cases were being dicussed....yup...i just kept crying everytime i saw someone who had been killed....
i was just struck with such intense grief......

now it certainly has been a long time since i've last written.....
just to let you all know...i haven't taken a leap off the edge of the world but rather, been stuck in my head. my place of work has been quite a source of frustration and stress and has therefore caused this little lass to entertain the possibility of seeking different, full-time work. today was my one of many days off and so the captain here (that's me) decided to phone a place of work that i had phoned before i got hired in retail; they were interested in hireing me. i phoned and he wanted me to come down to fill out an application. ths head office of their's is close to the farthest thing away from where i am....none the less....i jump on transit and an hour later i arrive. i filled out this two sided, off white coloured peice of paper and hand it too the guy. I was expecting the regular rutine of application forms, hand it in, leave, get a phone call maybe a week too two weeks later.
he skims it over and then proceeds to tell me how their company works. I start friday morning.
now i have to horrible task of telling my current work enviroment that I have to leave in order to puruse a better employment oppotunity. I hate quitting. ahh well....c'est la vive....